a while back i wrote a blog entry requesting for help at the time i was over whelmed and feeling like i was drowning in stress and unrest but now i believe ive reached a level of inner peace if you do not already know i am in the army i did not believe myself to be a person of nonviolence when i joined things change and just how i have came to believe what i do today i am coming to grips with the career i have entered this is something that because of honor and duty i must complete i refuse to allow this institution to banish me from their ranks i am a soldier i will always be a soldier but! i am not a soldier who is filled with rage or hatred i am a soldier who has the same morals and values that were taught to every soldier in training i am a soldier fighting for peace because i refuse to resort to violence as means to destroy my enemies y kill your eneimes with guns and blades y beat your enamies down more will only stand up where you tore down the last violence spawns violence we are at war we are not at war with terrorism we are at war wit han idea our government believes its so powerful it can destroy a way of life and an idea that has been ingraned in these people the more we use force to eradicate these people the fast it spreads i feel like im standing on a hill side watching two great nations charging head strong to their own demise both lead by only unsound logic and a fierce blood thirst one side is willing to throw millions of soldier into the flames of war thinking the blood of their people will extinguish the flames waiting and watching for the fire to settle so they can swoop in and rape the land for all its worth the other side is using religion as a weapon brain washing their people to believe the lies they want so hard to be the truth they to throw their own people into te flames of war beliving self sacrafic will bring the western devils to their knees both side unwilling ti give up both sides lost in the heat of battle both sides thier minds clouded with greed and hatred have lost their minds crazy with revenge daily they charge blindly into battle and i stand there on that hill top part of one side but unable to stop either side my soul cries out for the lost my mind is lost in a swirl of confusion why am i a part of this i do not believe the same as these bringers of death but what can i do to change their minds the halt these maddening ideas that are spreading faster then summer wild fires more and more people are buying into them i am but one peaceful warrior amoungst legions of blood thristy rage-oholics

thanks for reading my blogs and hit me up if you have some comments or questions just to let you all know awol is not an option ive had a couple people tell me to do that in the past i do not believe in running away from my problems that will never solve them it only lets them grow unchecked so plz dont write me telling me to give up and go awol these blogs are more ideas and some of the things i have seen within the army and the people around me, their acceptance of violence and their readiness to use it as means to solve their problems